I’ve been chatting with a fellow novelist and my cheerleader about what happens next now that agents are reading the full manuscript. I had a certain way of looking at “what if” and while it was different from my novelist friend’s, I thought there was no harm in it.
Except, now I think there might be.
What I was referring to (in my mind) as a fear of jinxing things–because, let’s face it, I am a little superstitious at times–may have really been a fear of disappointment. I was afraid to talk about how well my manuscript is doing, and what may come next, because doing so would guarantee all the agents will reject the book. Sounds like a valid superstition to me, except…
It also says I don’t believe in my writing. If I *KNOW* my book is good enough to be published, then I should be confident that someone will see it too. If I believe every agent will eventually pass on my manuscript, then I’m saying I don’t have faith in what I’ve written; that I don’t think it’s good enough to be published.
If the above paragraph is true then I have no business querying agents and wasting their time. I HAVE TO BELIEVE IN WHAT I’VE WRITTEN. So, with that in mind, I am moving forward from this point with my head held high and a stereotypically-determined glint in my eye. I believe in my book, dammit!
So far, so too do a number of agents.
I have EIGHT fulls and one partial out with agents right now. That’s right.
I am going to start investigating the sorts of questions I should ask WHEN an agent calls to offer representation. I’ll let you know what I find.
*I believe in my manuscript, dammit!*